i think its time i dealt with my past.
i guess. so.
its like this recent weeks i have been invaded back to my past.
My unwanted past.
I met up with people who i detest most in my life.
i didn't plan to meet them, just sheer coincidence.
it feel weird cause is happening again and again.
i met up with people who i like used to like most in my life.
but i just don't feel like saying hi.
cos we are no longer how we are suppose to be.

i never want to show my sincere feeling
cos i felt that sincerity should be kept inside
i never want to show my concern feeling
cos i felt that concerning one's does not have to show
i never want to declare my friendship
cos i felt friendship is something only i n her/him should know
i never force my friends to trust me
cos i felt trust is to believe in someone
i never regret for what i did
but somehow i develop a heart of stone through my actions
and when i realises it, my feelings when blank.

did you felt that way, friends?
did you felt that way, love ones?
did you felt that way, strangers?
did you felt that way, enemies?

i saw them
i felt i have lost that sense
i feign the presence of them
but it seems hard cause the crowd is watching them with engrossment
Why?
i felt like tearing it apart
but what for?
i don't need it either
then there's a point i realise
im happy enough

it's weird.
Life is weird. like puzzles
How many times in your life, u said "i love you, i cant live without you" to your parents?
How many times in your life, u said "i love you, i cant live without you" to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Who do u love more? Many would say parents but i doubt they say more "i love you, i cant live without you"  to their parents.
it's weird isn't it.

Why can we be independent?
Nobody can be deem how independent they are.
Nobody become successful all by himself
How did he get the client then?
weird.

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